Before I found out I had a brain tumor I suffered from clinical depression due to the fact my tumor was located on my frontal lobe. This area will affect ones emotions and behaviors. I would wake up and sit in my chair all day watching TV. I had no energy, because of depression but I am sure the tumor as well. I felt hopeless. I would often ask God “Why?” am I so unhappy and alone.
I am studying James right now and learning from the wonderful Beth Moore. Her book JAMES, MERCY TRIUMPHS is in depth and full of insight.
I want to share with you one of her many wonderful thoughts regarding trials and suffering. She brings up Job and how it was because of his upright walk that he was tested. He became a target because he did so many things right! (That is not an excuse to start acting up and rebelling!) God called Job blameless and upright.
Beth goes on to add a sobering truth about the nature of trials in the life of a righteous person. God will allow them to be tested in order to prove their faith. As Beth Moore put it, “In some ways their endurance proves the Lord’s boast in them.”
Hmmmm, ponder that for a moment…….
She then writes, “He permits and sometimes even dictates difficulty for those in whom He boasts so that they will prove what He already knows is true. The Lord does not put us to test that He knows in advance we don’t have the wherewithal to pass. He boasts in his faithful followers then lets them prove Him right. Sometimes the person most shocked by the proof is the human put to the test.”
I am not calling myself righteous or blameless but I do know it was not sin that gave me a brain tumor. I also know in my heart that this trial WAS a test of my faith.
So Dearest Reader, if you are caught up in the “Why Me” syndrome, maybe you have your answer. Just remember that He will not set you up to fail. He knows your frame and He knows what you can do and why you need to weather the trial you are facing. I pray that God calls you blameless and upright as you finish your race in this life. That is my personal hope for myself. Let us live a life as imitators of Christ. Amen
1 Pet 4:12-13 (NIV) Dear friends, do not be surprised at the painful trial you are suffering, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice that you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed.
Deut 8:2-3 (NIV) Remember how the Lord your God led you all the way in the desert these forty years, to humble you and to test you in order to know what was in your heart, whether or not you would keep his commands. He humbled you… to teach you that man does not live by bread alone but on every word that comes from the mouth of the Lord.